Guess Who's Back???

Hola Chicas!

Yes, I'm back. Firstly, just want to say a whopping thank you very much to those of you who commented on my last post. I'm a bit embarrassed by how pathetic I sounded tbh but I'm just going to put it down to silly hormones. So, I've been a bit MIA for the past week but you should be glad to know that this is because I have become a swot and have got stuck right into Uni work. Just need to push myself for another week then that's us stopped for the Easter break- I can't wait! 

 But all work and no play makes Deborah a very dull girl indeed; so there hasn't been much to blog about unfortunately. Except of course, Tuesday night when I  ventured into the big smoking city to see Micky Flanagan's stand-up gig. It was facking hilarious! Honestly, I laughed so hard I think a bit of pee came out! 

I was going to wear my Henry Holland suspender tights with this outfit, but chickened out of it because I was going with my dad and wee bro. In hindsight I'm glad I didn't because even the heart shaped tights caused my dad's eyebrows to rise! 

I'm still sans tripod at the mo but I managed to I enrol my long suffering boyfriend into taking these pics and I'm chuffed as chuff nuts with them. I took full advantage of the sun still being out on Tuesday evening and went out the back to attempt an 'edgy' outdoor shot.The last two pics I  played a bit around with the saturation. Don't have a clue what the saturation actually is or does, but it seems like its the done thing with all the kool kats so I've followed suit. 

F-leather Jacket: New Look

Top: Urban Outfitters 

Shorts: Levi Vintage via ebay

Tights: Primark 

Knee-High Socks: H&M 

Shoes: Topshop

As an aside, I've been playing about with this blog for the past two or three months, and I'm flattered to bits that anyone would want to read it. However, I want to move it on to the next stage and have a better layout and design. Unfortunately, I'm absolutely useless with computers so I think I'll have to go down the commissioning someone to do it route. Is it an illustrator that I need? Graphic designer? How much roughly do they cost? 

 I have googled it but I'm still at a loss so if any of my blogger friends have any experience or knowledge of this, then any advice would very much be appreciated. 

Thanks and Come Again! 

;) 

XXX 

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* Firstly, apologies for the overly worded post and secondly, a warning that if you're offended by a couple of swear words, then its probably best that you don't read on. For all the rest- Enjoy! :)

Me, drinking herbal tea, attempting to chill the fuck out despite no tripod. Grrr!!!

Very laid back outfit today.
Vest: Topshop
Levi Shorts: bought off ebay
Belt: Zara, Tights: Primark, Socks: H&M.

Although I maintain this is a lifestyle blog I've still never wanted to or felt the need to divulge too much personal information. In a way that's why I love the blogging world, as the snippets you read about other peoples lives are presented in a manner that makes it seem as if they live such fantastic, whimsical existences. And its so refreshing in comparison to how overflooded my facebook news feed is with other people bemoaning about how bored they are, or how outraged they are that Eastenders isn't showing because the channel is covering a humanitarian crisis! So, when I started this blog, as a rule I didn't want it to be an arena where I bitched or moaned (that's what mums are for lolz). However, for today's post I will break that optimistic rule that I made all those two whole months ago. It's a rule that needs to be broken because it explains why I latterly bought said items below, so all in all, still in keeping with the ethos of this blog.

Okay, so I HATE Uni, like yes, I know you've probably heard a million people moan about before, or indeed you've been in that situation where mid way through uni you yourself have indeed hated Uni. But, I HATE Uni ( ppl please note my use of capitals and underlining and how strongly I'm trying to emphasis that I absolutely, utterly detest Uni) I've hated it since like week 2 when it dawned on me what a humongous mistake I had made with choosing the wrong course, wrong uni but ultimately the wrong time to go to Uni. I just wasn't mature enough to handle the self discipline that Uni entails but I couldn't change course or uni cause I would have felt a failure if I had done so. So three years down the line, and I'm miserable and I'm just trying to keep my head above water, get a pass mark, and get the fuck out of there. Today, was one of those days that I wished I had left Uni all those years ago...

Well, I knew last night that something wasn't right when I wanted to doze off to sleep at 8 o'clock, because I am ordinarily such a night owl. Then again, when I woke at 7 this morning, I was all sweaty and pale and shivering. I left my flat in a rush, without breakfast because I was running late for an important and unmissable tutorial at Uni today. The shakes continued on the train and I just put it down to not having breakfast so even though I was already late I stopped off at McDonald's to grab a coffee and hash brown to give me some much needed energy. The building in which I have my tutorial has one of those huge industrial sized lifts that crushes like 40 odd students in like sardines. So in  I went into the lift today and it was busy as usual, at the back I  saw a of few of my classmates and gave them a nod. On its way to floor 5 it went, and by that stage the caffeine had really started to kick in and I felt really shaky and hot. But after it reached level 2 it all of a sudden started descending to ground level again. Ping the door slide open and some students waiting to get in noticed the confused expression of  those already in the lift faces and stayed put. Others, anxious that they were late for class as well started to pile in until literally my nose was pressed against someone else's bag. I felt very suffocated, like I couldn't breathe, and hot and dizzy and I just couldn't wait to get out into open air again. Then the guy infront of me must have lost his balance and fell slightly back onto me causing my roasting hot coffee to spill all over my body. And that was it! For whatever reason I seriously lost the plot, I gasped in horror, the guy turned round and meekly apologised, then I just shouted out that I needed out the lift- "Stop the lift! Stop the lift! I need to get out!" I screamed like a banshee. Queue everyone staring at me blankly like some sort of weirdo, and some nervous giggling from the ones at the back. When we did eventually reach to level 5, I elbowed my way out from the crowd and promptly began to cry, not just cute little girl whimpers, but proper violent croaky crying. And then, I just couldn't physically go to my tutorial. I was just overcome with anxiety and fear and I just wanted to run away. Plus, there was people in the lift from my class who had saw me, and not one of them stopped to see if I was okay.

So I just sat in the a computer lab next to my tutorial in an attempt to compose myself. Now I have never experienced that kind of anxiety before. I'm quite a confident person always willing to speak publicly and I'm usually the first in the line for karoke so it just came out of the blue. I don't want to say it was a panic attack cause I'm still unsure and I don't want to belittle those who suffer from them. But I just think a combination of being unwell, running late, too much caffeine and literally hating. every. single. minute. of. uni was a dangerous concoction that caused me to lose it today.

So I vowed whilst sitting in the computer lab staring blankly at the bbc newspage that I would never again be so overcome with anxiety, and I spent the rest of my day doing things to 'chill the fuck out!'  (said in my head in the voice of Mark Darcy from the Briget Jones's Diary):-

First stop was at this bric-a-brac shop in the centre of Glasgow that sell some well random stuff. First of all, I got a dream catcher 'cause I've been having some really disturbing nightmares recently and because of that I've avoided going to bed until I'm literally passing out on the couch. I also got some lavender oil that I'm gonna pour into my bath at nights, and then sprinkle a few droplets on my pillow.

Then some herbal tea, because caffeine is the source of the devil and makes me all cranky! And,I also got the bracelet that has Catholic images and iconology on them. In my teens I used to have something very similar and would wear that along side my rosary beads sometimes. But, because I'm quite a reluctant church goer these days I haven't felt comfortable wearing jewellery with religious significance as a fashion accessory when I no longer practice the faith. However, like millions before me, when faced with a crisis I sought solace in religion, and I'm gonna wear it from now on as a comfort to remind me of my roots and previous beliefs. 

And finally I got Guatemalan Worry People...

How cute are they! 

Basically, the idea is that you tell these little people your worries at night, then place them underneath your pillow in the the bag, and by the morning the worry people take your worries away. I just think they are so cute. But when I try it out tonight I'll have to be sure to go to bed early, as there's a WHOLE LOTTA worrying going through my head right now!

  

And, then... just because I had had a crap day... a wee mini haul in Primark :) 

Kimono: Primark £10
Love, love, love this! Can't wait for the summer and I'm gonna rock this with tribal head band and flared jeans. 

Scarf: £4.
I've seen a lot of girls wearing this and a lot of my friends also have it, but I couldn't resist- its a bargain. Plus, because its oversized I think I'm also gonna use it as a sarong for my summer hol.  

Skirt: £12
Now this may be one of those items that I look back and think what was I thinking! But, then again until I manage to get my rugby sized legs under control a longer sized skirt may be a good thing.

And.... breathe! Phew... Well done for anyone who actually read that post in full- cause god I'm so bored of it, I can't even be bothered to check for typos. I just feel really stupid tonight. So much so, I'm not even telling this to my friends nor my mum. And yet, here I am telling all you 7 followers, and whoever else may stumble upon my blog -hi btw! :)

So has anybody else had a similar experience or used any of the voodoo stuff I bought? And does any of it actually work??? Would love to hear from you. 

xxx

Night Out

Dress Primark

Beige Jacket: Red Herring

'F-leather' Jacket:  Market stall in Nuneaton

Shoes: H&M

Ring: Primark

I'm just in from a little soiree in Glasgow with the b to the f and his best friend. My boyfriends from down South (England), and we met on holiday seven years ago and had a long distance relationship until he decided  he couldn't bear to be without me any longer and made the move to bonnie Scotland. 

Okay, I'll stop myself before I give you the whole day by day account of how our relationship developed- I'm not that drunk! Maybe another time :) 

Got inspired to wear this outfit when I was doing my last post. This dress cost a whopping pound from Primark and I think simply because of its price is the reason why I love wearing it so much. So far the dress has cost me about 10p per wear. Such a bargain! 

The ring that I'm wearing from Primark doesn't really go, but I'm in love with it so it'll probably feature in most of my posts for some time coming regardless of whether it goes with an outfit or not! Jewellery is such an after thought for me, but next pay packet I'm gonna get some key items. 

Okay, so my battery is flashing, gonna need to publish this, so until next time folks. 

Be good! 

xxx  

MY 5 Wardrobe Staples.

Due to my heavy handedness, I've went and blooming broke my tripod, so no outfit post today. Instead I thought I'd try something a bit different. I said in an earlier post that I'll soon be in the process of shifting my wardrobe around: adding summer clothes that have been stuffed in suitcases all winter and then packing jumpers into those plastic thingymejigs that you vacuum the air out of. And it just got me thinking about the clothes that remain in my wardrobe throughout the seasons, year in year out. And I realised that I do tend to wear and buy the same kind of clothes. So for better or worse, here are 5 pieces that are my wardrobe staples:  

ONE: BLAZERS 

(L-R) Asos, Red Herring, Zara, H&M, Mango, and Topshop. 
As I write its only just dawned on me that I have a grey and peach blazer lurking in my cupboards to add to this collection. Basically I love blazers! I even loved my school uniform one and I wore it even though it wasn't compulsory uniform. The reaons why I love them is beacause they add structure to my curvaceous frame; they also widen out my shoulders to balance my hourglass shape, and I think they instantly smarten and bring any outfit together. I definitely have a love affair with blazers, and I've got my eye on a few boyfriend style ones that are in the shops right now. 
TWO: FLORAL
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Too many clothes to mention, but will no don't be in some OOTD come summer!
This isn't even a third of the amount of floral clothes that I own! I like to think of myself as a happy, go-lucky kind of gal and by wearing bright, busy floral patterns is maybe some way of reflecting my personality through my clothes iykwim?  Although, I do appreciate that well cut black cloth can create a sophisticated outfit, I tend to think that the majority of black clothes from the high street eventually goes grey, can look cheap and washes many a complexion out, therefore I shy away from wearing head to toe black and instead opt to wear more cheerier items.
 THREE: MAXI DRESSES

(L-R) Primark, Topshop, Primark. 

Again, ditto the fact that this isn't a third of the amount of maxi dresses that I own. Although, I'm only 5"3 I do wear a lot of long length skirts and dresses. I've probably been mostly influenced in wearing these from my hippie mother, and so I was wearing maxi dresses a long time before they became fashionable in the summer of 2010 to the extent that I was very square.  I wear my slinky ones in my 'slim' days with heels and lots of chunky jewellery, and I wear my loose fitting ones on my 'fat' days, layered up with cardigans and a huge scarf. And the bonus point about maxis is you don't need to shave your legs, perfect for inbetween waxing sessions!   

Four: Leopard Print

Red blouse: New Look/  Stilettos: Principles/ Dress: Topshop/ Blouse: Miss Selfridge/ Headscarf: New Look/ Cross T-Shirt: Urban Outfitters.  

Bet Lynch eat your heart out! Although I don't have many items in this collection, they make a big impact every time I wear them. On nights when I want to be a rock n roller I ordinarily pair each  item with my leather skirt for thee ultimate tacky effect. For most people's tastes its too brash, but I laave it!

FIVE: CHECKED SHIRTS 

(Outside to inwards) Primark, New look, New Look, Primark.
Okay, so checked shirts are never going to be the most exciting fashion pieces in the world. But I'd be lying if omitted them from this list, because anybody who knows me in real life will know that I live in checked shirts. Yep, hair scraped up in a loose bun, checked shirt, plain t underneath, levi's (either shorts, skirt or jeans delete as appropriate), and my converses make up my 'go to' everyday uniform. Its been like that since I was about thirteen and was a major  groupie wannabe. I literally stalked all the boys at school who were in bands.Checked shirts I rightly or wrongly believed exuded Indie chick and would instantly cast a spell under a scruffy haired, skinny jeaned boy that took my fancy.Despite my love for high heels, pink, bling and lipgloss I am a bedraggled Indie girl at heart.

 So there we have: the five items of clothes that defines my style. Interestingly, if I had done this kind of post about 5 or 7 years ago, in reverse of most people, my choices would have been a lot more sophisticated. When I was young, I was so desperate to appear older, so my wardrobe consisted mainly of pencil skirts, high heels, ditto blazers, and straight jeans. Liz Hurley's style pops into my head. And its a bit ironic that the older I get, the less sophisticated my style becomes lolz. But I mainly put this down to how much less of a disposable income I have in comparison to my teenage years. 

Its quite informative doing this kind of thing as I realised that I need to work on that 'capsule wardrobe', as I've got umpteen dresses that cost a fortune, and yet I don't even own a plain white tee. I hope in the future much more classical items will appear although like Vivienne Westwood I still think I'll be rocking leopard print well into my seventies! 

So what are your 5 wardrobe staples??? 

xxx

Work Experience

Dress: Primark (CS, "Cinnamon", £15.00)

Wedges: H&M. 

Good Afternoon you beautiful people out there!

This is what I wore to my work experience today. And by,work experience, I mean doing some photocopying and filing for my mum and dads friend. And by, wore, I mean this is the dress I had on. In reality I wore this dress with thick, black opaque tights, black sturdy and freshly polished shoes, and a fluffly monsoon cardigan to keep me warm. But for the purposes of this blog and for photographic effect I've went bare legged and teamed it with beige wedges. Wishful thinking for summer or what?

It was only me who was in the office today so I could have worn my jeans and converses if I wanted to but then it wouldn't have put me in a professional mood. Honestly, I cannot wait 'til I graduate and find employment that doesn't enforce a micky mouse uniform. My uniform at the cinema where I work is plain black trousers, black shoes and a black shirt. This also was my school uniform and in many ways it makes me feel like I haven't properly became an adult yet. The day that I leave the house suited and booted with hair pinned back will be the day I do. 

I did have a couple of years out inbetween school and University and I lived down near Birmingham where I had a variety of jobs. My favourite was when I worked in as a recruitment consultant (a fancy name for a cold call salesperson imho) and I had my own desk, my own telephone,  and my own works' mobile phone. I also had the good fortune of being able to pick as and when I had lunch, come in and leave and could stop to have tea breaks anytime I wanted. Ahhh I miss those days. 

Three years of University has mainly consisted of sleeping in til eleven most mornings, daily watching of The Wright Stuff (12 O'clock repeated episode) and five month long summers. Days like today make me wonder what my life would be like if I hadn't went to Uni and continued to work full time. Well, firstly, I wouldn't be ten grand in debt, and I also believe I would be driving by now ( I am ashamed to say that at 22 I've only had one driving lesson and never bothered going back),  But I also wonder...would I have seen more of the world by now, would I have a mortgage, would I be married to my partner of 7 years and gulp... would I be a mother by now??? 

Well I'll never know and I don't know if all that would neccessary be a good thing for someone so young. But then again, the onset wrinkles are creeping in and I no longer can get away with doing the reckless things I did as a teenager. So soon enough I will be a fully responsible adult and yearn for the days when posting a blog was at the highest priority of my day. 

xxx

  

hmmm...unsure

 

I'm really hesitant to post this outfit, namely because all the photos are of poor quality but also because this I'm unsure of the clothes. I mean I do like it... but its soooo... Deborah circa 2005. Its all a bit too girly: pink floaty dress, hair curled with ghds, and over use of eyeliner around the eyes. My style has moved on from this, but two nights ago after the man proposed that we go out for dinner this is the combination that I reluctantly went for.

But, I've not really got anything else to put up, so in the hope that bad publicity is better than no publicity up comes this post. I've got so much to do today. My mums coming round for dinner and I've pre- made lasagne however, this is the one time that it doesn't really work out so I'm gonna trawl through the internet in a minute to make something else. The lasagne is probably perfectly edible, but my mum does get so anxious  because I live away from home, that its almost as if I have to prove to her that I'm actually a domestic goddess!

What else... oh also going out tonight, but I think I'm gonna lay off the alcohol. If I do manage to stay off the drink it'll probably be the first time that I've went without drinking whilst socialising for like maybe eight years. God I sound like an alcoholic! I'm really not a big drinker, but I am far too reliant on having a sociable  glass of wine- I even do that middle age thing of having a glass at night to wind down.

That's all there's time for today folks. Hope you enjoyed reading. Come Again! ;-) 

XXX

Lipstick bitching!

A whopping 75 minutes of my time today was spent idly perusing the make-up shelves in Superdrug and after careful consideration these three beauties were deemed worthy of parting with a crisp ten pound note:
 (L_R) Barry M : 100, Accessorize: Shade 7 Velvet Pink,  MUA: Shade 1.

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Close Up of Barry M 100 

On a daily basis, I am likely to be found drooling over Carey's blog fancy treehouse, she is quickly becoming one of my favourite fashion icons.  I adore  her signature make-up style of feline sixties eyes, pinched cheeks, and understated pale pink lips. In an attempt to recreate this look I picked this Barry M number.  The lipstick has a waxy texture and gives a matte finish. The colour is build able, and on the picture above, three coats were used to achieve this shade.  Please excuse the picture, I hadn't realised until I applied this lipstick how dehydrated my lips had become. With regret,  I think this shade would suit girls with a darker or warmer complexion than mine.  And thus, my search for the perfect pale lipstick continues.

Rating: 4/10 

I was seduced by the packaging reminiscent of old-school glamour of this Accessorize lipstick. Coral is the shade of the season, and this colour will certainly make any face pop! This was my first purchase from this brand, but due to the high quality of this lipstick, it certainly won't be my last. As mentioned, the packaging is gorgeous, I think I just love gold against coral, and the bit of bling at the top, will make it easily identifiable in my lipstick drawer that is awash with sleek, black cases. Also, it smells divine by exuding hints of coconut. In the picture above, I applied the shade twice around my lips. All in all, I am extremely impressed with this purchase, and I believe it will feature quite heavily in this blog over the coming months. 

Rating 7/10

I saved my favourite for last. And ironically, it was also the cheapest lipstick,  for those of you who don't know every product from the MUA range is a meagre pound! The Accessorize's packaging may have been reminiscent of old school glamour but this MUA one is the real deal! I think this is the perfect shade of red for me as the blue undertone marries well with my cold complexion. It is highly pigmentated and I achieved the colour above from only one application. The texture is smooth and glides onto the lips effortlessly; possibly too effortlessly as you can see from the bleeding in the pic above - lip liner is highly recommended! For a measly pound the product is long lasting and I only topped it up tonight after I had finished a 3 course meal. Three hours later, the colour is still going strong. 

Rating 9/10

What lipstick is your favourite? 

XXX

FOTD- Or rather last night's

 Went to an impromptu gathering of friends at a pub last night. I was in a bit of a funny mood as I didn't like what I was wearing, or rather how the outfit looked on me. Yip, yesterday I had one of my fat days, that's why there is no outfit picture to follow. To compensate for my lack of confidence with my outfit I slightly over- applied my make-up to how I would wear it normally. I even lined the inside of my eyes which I very rarely do these days. But, actually it just reminded me how much I love playing around with eye make-up and the Arabic inspired style.

 

Bobbi Brown Skin foundation 'Warm Ivory'
MAC Studion finish Concealer NW20
MAC Mineralize Skin Finish 'Medium Plus'
Benefit Bronzer 'Hoola'
ELF blush 'Peachy Keen'
MAC eyeshadow Retrospeck Bleached Blonde
MAC eyeshadow 'romp'
Barry M 'Black Glitter eye crayon'
Bobbi Brown  gel eyeliner 'Black Ink'
Bourjois mascara Pump the volume.
Collection 2000 Lip liner '17 Clover Pink'
Bourjois Lipgloss 3D effect '33'

 Phew, that wasn't half a list of make-up there! 

I drank far too much wine last night, like 8 or 9 large glasses of wine within two hours, and because I'm not much of a drinker, I have felt the full after effects today. By in large the full day has been wasted because I have felt so weak and lethargic to do anything. I'm actually really annoyed with myself, so I think I'll resolve to  make March my all round general fitness and wellbeing month. 

'Cause God the way I'm feeling right now- I'm never touching a drop of alcohol again! 

xxx